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August 4th, 2013 (08:31 pm)

I may well have to write a fucking essay about the new Doctor.

Suffice to say - I'm rather joyous.

Bring on the trumpets! [userpic]

Writing related emo bullshit

June 12th, 2013 (09:04 pm)

I've completely lost my ability to write, largely owing to losing the best line I've had in RP (in a way that really bothers me, because I knew a PSL was going to die like they always do, but I was assured we had so much planned that wouldn't happen). This has, to be honest sort of devastated me, it had been my writing partner's favourite line we had so many ideas, so many AUs because they were so utterly perfect together (in an interesting and extremely messed up way) they worked in any scenario. As a result of all these AUs every line or plot I think or to want to write myself just reminds me of them and it hurts. The worse thing is I blame myself because I left the game they were in owing to a number of reasons which basically made the game into a form of self-harm or mental torture for me, but I feel like if I stayed the line might not have ended. And the worse thing is I'd have stayed for that line. I really would.

So now I have a totally broken muse in my head, 30,000+ words of fic relating to them that I can't even bear to touch right now and nothing is the least bit inspiring to me. There don't seem to be any interesting RPGs around any more or if there are I can't get lines, and it's so difficult to get organic lines (another thing I loved about this line, it came from nowhere there was just this unmistakable spark), no one PBs the people I'd like to write against, every uses the same over used teen American faces and I just have no interest in any of that.

And then of course there's the knowledge that even if I do somehow find a line it'll probably end and I'll left with another muse that becomes unwriteable. So it really feels like what's the point?

Trying to write alone isn't working either. Any ideas I have just don't work, like I just cannot write anything when it comes down to it - I need someone to write against, I'm rubbish at writing alone, I just can't find the plots to make things interesting and it's just not the same. I like writing with people, but it's just too difficult.

To make matters worse my hours at work have been cut meaning I now have loads of time, and absolutely nothing to do and it's really getting to me. I need to write, I just can't.

Bring on the trumpets! [userpic]

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February 23rd, 2012 (07:37 pm)

Can anyone with a little more know how of these things get the pictures from this site? You can't just click and save, which is where my know how ends sadly, and I really feel like my life would be improved by having them on my hard drive.

Thank you!

Bring on the trumpets! [userpic]

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February 6th, 2012 (03:47 pm)

Just deleted almost all my user pics. I wanted to completely update them but I can't bear the thought of deleting these last remaining few. Plus most are pretty relevant. I also now have an active Adam Ant icon, which is the important thing here.

Tomorrow I may post about the extreme epicness of the new Being Human, but for now just know this - I'm utterly in love with Tom McNair.

Bring on the trumpets! [userpic]

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December 7th, 2011 (10:32 pm)

So I really don't update here much at all do I?

In some ways things are good. I have a temp job, which finishes just before Xmas. My line manager is amazing and lovely and Office Angels who got me the job are beyond helpful. I had to phone in sick on Monday, but they've said I can take it as a holiday and still get paid. I've also made a love new friend who I went out with on Friday. She is a very bad influence, but this is much better than the good influence of M who always made me feel guilty when we went out.

Tomorrow I'm going to see Shed Seven with an old friend from uni and on Saturday we're off to see Adam Ant again. It's only been a little over 6 months since I last saw him but I cannot wait.

I'm trying to write more original fic. I have a number of pieces I'm currently working on. I'm not sure if they'll go anywhere but I feel happier writing this rather than fandom. I'm also doing a lot more original PSLs to broaden my horizons. It's just a shame people are so bloody unreliable.

I'm not looking forward to Christmas in the slightest. I never do but this year is looking especially lame with no one coming to my auntie's for dinner as usual and no M meaning I'll be getting very presents, which is what Xmas is all about, right ;)

So basically things could be worse, but they could be a lot better. I've given up on the idea of meeting anyone else, it just all feels like too much trouble at this point.

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August 18th, 2011 (01:27 am)
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Would anyone be interested if I told you a had a 4 minute canon for someone I'd love to play against? You can't get smaller canon, surely?

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August 14th, 2011 (05:47 pm)

How can there be so little chemistry between two people in one game when in another they're lovers. I'm honestly confused. There's just nothing.

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July 21st, 2011 (12:49 pm)
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My girl was dumped by someone she wasn't even going out. I feel this is a new low for her.

This would have been a tweet but I don't want to cause drama.

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July 19th, 2011 (01:12 am)
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Anyone looking for a new RP game? A new face? Miss RPing with me so much that they'd be willing to discuss y'know plots and ideas and stuffs? (that's a joke btw)

I mean I would give up and everything, but alas that's not my style :/

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June 14th, 2011 (12:14 am)

Is Twitter completely and utterly not working for anyone else? I keep getting sent to some Microsoft site.

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