:( I have a bunch of fics saved on Microsoft Office's trail thing because I didn't realise I had Word and now I can't do anything with them. I can't even copy and bloody paste those into Words, so I'm going to have to type them all out again.

You know unless someone knows something I don't which is always possible.

Oh yeah and the Howard thing- sort of went well, in that I got to see him very close up but not to interact with in anyway :( but I was pissed by the time he came on at 1.30am and gave up just looking at him after about half an hour. Bit of a waste of time, but I'm still glad I went.

In a couple of hours I will on my way to see Howard Donald DJing, I'm already starting to freak out about it. I'm not sure if I want to wear the outfit I've picked out or not and I know I wont even get that close, but after the minor freak out I had at Plug when James Righton was DJing I hate to think how this'll go.

I've loved Howard since I was like 12 see, and while he's not realy my favourite any more it's still Howard freaking Donald! Hopefully him not being in Take That and dancing about will help me stay calm but...*flails* I suppose the worse that can happen is I'll make a twat of myself in front of him.

I need a drink clearly!

Holy fuck Howard Donald's DJing at Plug next month!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I may be a little over excited about this, despite the fact he'll be in the dance room, but OMG yay!!!!!!!!

Gary Barlow's doing a book signing tour next month, I shouldn't want to go but I do. There's also a Take That meet up in Nov that to be honest I would kill to go too, I know it's wrong and sad and I shouldn't love them, but I do! *spots a common theme here* Meh I blame Howard, he was my first real crush and they were so damn good live, I hope the tour gets released on DVD soon.

And look I found Howard icons! *squees*

Now please excuse me while I go contemplate my own pathetic girliness and hand over my goth card.

Yup I'm posting purely cos I now have a Howard icon, it's not great, but it's from last night (when I didn't get to touch them, cos I was too optimistic, I should have learn my lesson by now!)

The seats we had last night were brilliant though, I actually think they're getting better and better, and they were wet again this time which was just brilliant! Oh how I love them *drifts off into thoughts of Howard*

Okay so last night I went to see Take That! (yes I really did just admit that) I loved them like a crazy person when I was about 12-15 so when I found out they were getting back together I had to get tickets to relive my youth.

They were amazing! Seriously, exactly as they were 10 years ago, the same amount of energy, an amazing stage show, just everything was perfect! And although we were sat right at the back on the floor, as we only got the tickets about a week ago a platform came down right in front of us and Howard (the first man I ever had dirty thoughts about I'm sure) was standing right in front of me! I've never screamed so much in my life, not even when I went to see Depeche Mode, I just totally regressed to being 14 again as di my friend Jen who I went with, we're not hoping to get more tickets to see them cos seriously there are no words to describe how good it was.

Highlights - Security going 'this isn't your scene is it?' as I walked in, which I found very funny cos I was the only goth there amazingly anough /sarcasm

Howard being right in front of me

Howard being wet

The tango version of 'It Only Takes a Minute' which was so amazingly sexy I was mesmerised.

Oh yeah and Collectormania was brilliant but I don't want to make this a really huge post so I'll talk about that later on once my pics are ready.